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Lesson 3

 “I wish you enough,” she whispered in my ear. “Enough sun to light up your days, enough rain that you appreciate the sun. Enough joy to strengthen your soul, enough pain that you can appreciate life’s small moments of happiness. And enough friends that you can manage a farewell now and then.” I found this quote in a book called "The Red Address Book" . It speaks to me in a way many other things do but this has been my guiding principle for as long as I can remember. I do not recall where I first heard it I only recall the feelings it evoked. I reached that point a few years ago but somewhere between 2018 and 2020 I lost it, well I suppose I didn't lose it so much as I forced myself to discontent  against officially reaching 59. I fought what I felt was the end of living for myself. I fought against the fact that soon I would be officially old. But I fought against it in my mind in my heart I felt old already and found myself getting more and more angry at the world and a

Lesson 2

 Wasn't expecting another one so soon but life is like that. I watched a video by someone I remember as a dear friend. Strong & vibrant at 63 she is not. I was only able to watch about six minutes of it because it hurt my heart and made me cry. I kept flashing to the second last time I saw her. She was standing on her doorstep as I took my daughter to the hospital for a cut on her leg that she had sustained while visiting my friend. I was all kinds of upset and worried because it looked so bad.  I saw her many years after that and she was confined to a wheelchair because of arthritis. I remember thinking it served her right that she had earned the punishment that that wheelchair represented. I said all the right things and moved on without a backwards glance. I will not tell you all the bad things I had heard about her but it was enough for me to feel that I made the right choice about leaving her behind. Now so many years after the fact I am looking at a woman who is only thre

Lesson 1

 My brain is a busy place or rather the mind that is within the brain. Convoluted I think but true non-the-less true. I chose to put off the daily writing because I felt like I wasn't really reaching as many people as I wanted too but found myself unwilling to work at it as a job. Like my crafting I don't do it for money, I do it because I want to. After six months of planning daily posts that were useful but not personal it became a chore, after nine months it felt like a job. I am a lazy person, and I have no wish for "a job" and really no need. I did my years in the work force and I've got scars to prove it. The world seems driven by the need to plan and compete for what? A roof over their head? I have that. To not be hungry, I have that. To  take trips? OK that one I miss but the trips I've gone on with the professor were fun and not my responsibility. (Thank goodness). I miss traveling to various places but since we never traveled outside our little corne

Word of the Year

Lessons Connection Power Health Strength Family I am not sure why LESSONS is the one that attracts me but it is the one I keep coming back to. 1. an amount of teaching given at one time; a period of learning or teaching. "an advanced lesson in math" Similar: class session seminar tutorial lecture period period of instruction period of teaching period of coaching period of tutoring period of schooling exercise assignment school task drill school work homework a thing learned or to be learned by a student. "he had a facility for languages and had learned his lessons well" a thing learned by experience. "the tragedy is a  lesson in  disappointment" Similar: knowledge wisdom enlightenment experience truths an occurrence, example, or punishment that serves or should serve to warn or encourage. "let that be a lesson to you!" Similar: warning deterrent caution example exemplar message moral precept 2. a passage from the Bible read aloud during a church


 Christmas has come & gone, there is a layer of ice beneath the snow except when the parking lot isn't covered by puddles. 2020 is almost over with and people keep saying 2021 has to be better. I am thinking not by much since this virus is still with us and has turned even trickier. Makes me think that 2021 will be the same, maybe even worse. The second wave arrived as expected but I think there are going to be several more waves until we finally find a vaccine that works at controlling it the way the measles vaccine makes measles much easier for kids to handle. The problem is that there are several different formulations and no one know which one will be the most effective. I am trying to get upbeat about 2021 but all I see when I look ahead is more of the same. It may not be a zombie apocalypse but it has changed how we shop and how we react to each other on a day to day basis. Avoiding human contact is not healthy but it seems to be the only thing that works to slow this vir

SAD- Tis the season

 According to Dr Jockers

This is Ridiculous

 November has not been conducive to writing like it should have been. I am taking a holiday until the first of December but frankly, I don't have the energy for much beyond reading and getting ready for Christmas. I will post on the days I have the energy but do not expect more than one post a week at my current level.